Aug 28, 2010

In His Hands

Former life - I use to rule the radio in our car...US 101.7 on every trip down the highway. Country tunes blasting, coffee cup in hand...shades in place and hair blowing....definitely a "wild thing."

Life now as I know it - Sunday School songs for Kids blasting out the minivan, coffee cup STILL in hand, larger shades in place to cover more of my cancer prone areas, hair chopped off in a ponytail.

I love both lives. I loved the freedom before, loved the little Honda car...loved brushing my hair and knowing that it wouldn't be grabbed by little fingers all day(at least I didn't understand that ungrabbed hair was a luxury)and I liked having a pair of smudge free sunglasses (same thing...not realizing all of the "accessories" that little fingers will find entertaining.)

But now....those Bible songs blaring and me knowing in my heart that I'm raising kids to love God, that they are getting a firm foundation in Love just on the way to Wal coffee tastes better in the morning now since it has become a life necessity (nothing starts before the coffee pot starts it's rhythmic 'drip' in the morning), my hair is growing back because those little fingers that love to comb through it are missing mommy's locks...and I now have an excuse to own 3 pairs of sunglasses instead of just one. I love this life we live...sometimes it takes sitting down and typing...reevaluating things and getting a fresh perspective...but I know I'm deeply and richly blessed.

Zac and I are in a sort of "honeymoon" stage...loving each other more and more than I ever thought possible. The kids still take most of our time ALL the time, most of our money ALL the time, most of our sanity ALL the time...but we are so happy that our family is growing and that we are learning - that we are on the same page and are one. I've been a little scared the last couple of days about the baby and it's health...I think because I'm SOOO excited that God has blessed me again - but I feel fear popping up now and then that maybe I won't ever meet my little April baby. I know, I know - God doesn't want us to live in fear. At the same time, He allows us to fear...maybe so that we can trust Him more? We need reasons to trust...this is mine now. And then on the way to go pick up a new double stroller (new to us) yesterday the Sunday School for Kids songs were on and this song started and I felt peace.

He's got the whole world, in His hands,

He's got the whole world, in His hands,

He's got the whole world, in His hands,

He's got the whole world in His hands.

He's got the tiny little babies, in His hands

He's got the tiny little babies, in His hands

He's got the tiny little babies, in His hands

He's got the WHOLE world in His hands.

My little baby is in His hands and there is no other place better for it to be...not even in my arms.


Cindy said...

mine, too!

Heidi said...

Loved this post. :)

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